We Fall in LOVE.

In honor of Valentines Day, this post documents my story of LOVE in the City. It's dedicated to my sweet Angel, Matt, who is my heart. (play song while reading: love song)

July 14, 2008, 11pm - "I know [love] is something I've always wanted, but I feel like it's for different reasons lately. Now I desire strength and protection. I think living on my own and having to be an adult makes me crave that. I just watched "Why Did I Get Married" and there's a scene where the wife and her husband are talking about their son who just died. The wife is blaming herself and crying because she's not strong enough to handle it. Her husband just holds her and says, "You don't have to be strong on your own - let me be strong for you." I want that."

December 29, 2008, 10:20pm - "Tomorrow I'm going to find a counselor to talk to. Not just about my parents but also about my belief in relationships. I want a loving relationship, but I don't know exactly what it would look like.  What's the purpose of commitment? At what point do you value the commitment over personal needs? What does a good dating relationship look like? What does a good marriage look like? What's the purpose of marriage?"

Dedicated my 2009 journal to love - front page reads "2009 - Year of Love" in a big heart :) It worked...

January 1, 2009, 11:26am - "This year i want to be even more open and unafraid of taking risks. I want to love and be loved like crazy. But not crazy. Always be true to myself."

January 31, 2009  8:26am - "I am ready for pure, beautiful, healthy, honest love. I am worthy of the best, healthiest, most quality kind of love and man."

March 29, 2009, 11:48pm - "I will go on a date soon with a cute single guy. I will get hugs and loves because that's what I want. Someone who is good, safe, kind, handsome.  We'll have good talks, go for coffee, dinner dates, and snuggle."

March 12, 2009, 10:08pm - "From a Coldplay song... 'My song is love, love unknown. And I'm on fire for you, clearly.'  I feel like it's close..."

March 26, 2009, 10:18am - "I really like Lynn [my cousin] and Brandon together. It gives me hope for a good relationship. They look like they enjoy and love and like each other. She is so comfortable with him and they are friends. There's no clinging, but true enjoyment of the other person. He's helpful and attentive to her, speaks gently and encouraging, and stares and smiles at her."

And then I met my own Love, Matt, on August 27, 2009....

The night we met <3

September 2, 2009, 7:20am - "I've had two dates with Matt D. I'm really looking forward to Saturday.. not sure what we'll be doing but hopefully will be nice. He's sweet, adorable and I like him."

October 4, 2009, 12:43pm - "Matt and I went out to get pizza, which we ate down by the water until it started to rain. Then on the way home, he held the box over my head in the rain the whole walk until we came upon a homeless man. Matt gave him the last slice. :)"

November 18, 2009, 12:10am - "Sunday night Gilburt [my kitty] had a bad accident and Matt was awesome.  He made the situation light-hearted yet helped come up with the solution. Seems silly but was actually amazing. That amped up how much I value and care for him. I may have decided I love him."

May you all feel the same love.  Happy Valentines Day.